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In the middle of my senior year I was totally planning on leaving that fall for PHC. That February, though, Distance Learning began, and I jumped in. I had fun, learned a lot, and really enjoyed it. My mom felt that God had brought this at the right time, and that I should just keep doing DL for at least another year. That semester PHC also started the Campus & Home program (fall/spring online and summers on-campus). My mom saw this as an answer to prayer (her prayers ;-) ). I didn't really agree with her, but that fall I started to change my mind. God really worked on me, and I've changed a lot. My beliefs about church, family, what it means it means to be a women of God and a submissive daughter are just a few places God has worked. I finally finished my C&H application and got it sent in, only to find out that C&H was changing. It was now 2 years though DL and 2 years on-campus. I believe that God wants me to stay at home under my parents. This was totally not an easy decision!!! You probably have no idea how long and hard I've been fighting it. So at least for this year (and who knows how many more), on-campus is kinda out of the question. I'm really having a hard time figuring out what to do. PHC was my dream for so long, it's hard to give it up. Even picking a major is hard. I was an Ed. major because that's all PHC had that I was interested in, and I thought it would be great for if I got married and had kids. But if I don't get married, I really want to do intensive ministry. Sometimes I just cry, "God, please, just tell me what to do! I just want this to be settled." I feel like a boat out in the middle of the sea without oars or a sail. I hope this dumping doesn't stress you out. ;-) Some of you have been asking me about my plans, and I wanted you to know where I am. Thanx for all your prayers!

"A man's heart deviseth his way, but the Lord directeth his steps."
Proverbs 16:9